Monday, May 3
disappointed in my chinese.
out of the 5 hanyupingyings, realised i've only one correct.
how pathetic is that. =|
i hope my compo is not out of point?
if my chi gets below b3, Kill me.
lowered down my expectations from a1 to b3,
What a Loser. GRR.
i'm so gonna study during the 2 weeks intensive,
memorise compos, AND GET A1. yeah.
Angry at myself.
angry, angry, angry.
i hate myself.
hate it for the person i am, the way i turn out.
my attitude towards work,
being Ban Tu Er Fei.
hate hate hate.
tried to study in church again.
but kept Sniffing and Sniffing.
Freaking Flu. GRR.
plus headache, fever, sorethroat.
How nice.
i am in an angsty mood now.
fat fat fat,
ugly ugly ugly,
disgusting disgusting disgusting.
fat ugly disgusting me. (: YAY.
i want to run. awayyy
brains blocked, nth can get in.
sleeping now, waking up at 2.30 to study.
waking eyecandy up at 3. (:
goodnite.